Devotion

Master Plant Dieta Entry #2

Preface: This is a journal entry from my month and a half long solo journey to do deep work, learning, and initiation with the nature spirits last year. I underwent a master plant dieta which, among many things, involved two weeks in complete isolation in the middle of the forest in a yurt in deep fast, meditation, energetic purging, and consult with spirit. This a journal entry from that two week period. I’ll be releasing more of these entries and musings of this sort over time as I feel called. With love, Empress Zella.

There’s a real intense restfulness. A peace and sedative effect that washes over you after that first meal, breaking the fast. It’s truly something. I’ve successfully completely fasted for over 48 hours and I am so proud of myself.

So proud.

What an accomplishment in itself. No water, dry fasting, for over 8 hours in the heat of the forest and then water fasting for the other 40. How remarkable. Now I’m in quite the daze because my body, after having nothing to digest for a while is now kicking systems into action. Immediately after eating, I was able to go into mediation for the first time since I’ve been here.

My body was distracted enough, and my mind sated enough to allow me to dive into nothingness—how divine. Some thoughts popped in, but I was easily able to float them away. Like little balloons is what I’ve been using in my head, like little balloons. How restful I feel—sated finally. Grateful for this feeling but knowing that without the time of hardship of complete fast, I would not know this feeling.

This peace. This satiation.

I’ve seen so many beautiful creatures—a few butterflies, a deer, a stick bug, a sand crab.

Also wanting to note that even in these times of bliss, my brain comes in to object, the ego pesters—more food? Quit and go buy Oreos? Restaurant food? What are you going to do for 12 more days here?

And to combat that, I say, I’m going to think and create and learn and be humbled by this pace. So that I return to the world truly changed. Grounded in wisdom, self-love, acceptance, and clear-seeing.

Trusting the process completely and utterly and releasing all else.

I know why I’m here and what I’m made of. I am capable of anything and everything because I say so and the universe has my back. I am carried by my guides and ancestors, and this plant spirit.

Anything is possible.